Scary, but Good Times ahead.....

I’m not going too complain too much in this I promise. Just that work is still bad.

Guess what? I have applied for 3 jobs this morning, see how I go. I haven’t been for a job in 7 years so I am a bit rusty, but hopefully I will get some interviews even if it’s just to practice wooing them lol. But you know what I just decided last night was there is no way I am going to be treated and spoken too like I have for the last 6 years while my previous boss was here to have him leave and it be great here and then back to it again in less than a month of him starting. I’m better that and deserve better than that.

I know there are people here at work who will think oh she’s leaving cos she didn’t get the job, but I know that’s not the case and that’s all that matters at the end of the day.

I will stay here until I find another job, I’m actually really excited about what can come of this, Nervous too cos it isn’t the best time to be changing jobs. But I have to stay true to myself and my heart isn’t here anymore and I’m not happy or challenged here anymore. I want to learn something new.

So tomorrow morning I will be job hunting YAY!

semi update

Where to start…..

I haven’t been able to update because I have a new boss. Oh yes after all my late nights and stressing, I didn’t get. Kind of glad, but I’m still quite peeved about it. Also I am really finding out who actually gives a shit about me at this place, basically one person I considered to be quite close too and I bent over backwards for has turned on me and is blaming me for a lot of things. I’m in too minds about leaving, I want to stay cos I like what I do and most of time it is pretty cruisy. But then I have been here for just over 7 years and I do feel a change is needed, but especially with this economic climate I don’t think its wise to move. Arghhh so confused.

In good news I have booked flights to Melbourne for Feb, for a special person’s wedding YAY! I can’t wait.

Life is pretty ho hum atm, I basically trying to keep my mouth shut from chucking a hissy fit at work and we saving for upcoming trips and things we want to do around the house.

Oh I did join the gym last week with hubby and I have only been once ha ha so naughty. Hubby is so good he is traing for the city to surf I need some of his motivation.

I’m sure there is so much more I’m properly forgetting but just can’t think. I don’t think I have been on here since I have been to Melbourne. I’m not even going to promise to be a good blogger cos chances are I won’t be able to update much. I’ll try though.

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Hubby has an interview for a job tomorrow. He is so great in things like that, makes me jealous I wish I had the gift of the gab like him.
His current place of employment really have treated everyone like crap since the start of the companies “Re Structure” they are a very big company and keeping everyone in the dark to be honest I don’t think they know what they are doing half the time. He basically decided to stay until he can get a job somewhere else. This job he is going for sounds good and it pays more too which is a nice little bonus. I guess we will know next week where he stands.

My work has extended the cut off for applications because apparently they weren’t getting what they wanted. I’m kinda happy cos now I can go away and not have to worry about an interview until I get back. It was originally arranged for the day I leave for Melbourne. Work is crazy atm, so busy but I’m trying to be a good blogger and update.

On Thursday I am going to a Pump class to try it out and see how I go. I’m looking into joining the gym just want to suss out some classes first as I prefer the classes. Spin is next on my list to try, my doctor will be happy she has been pushing for me try spin for a while now. Even though she has admitted she went once and couldn’t go back cos in her words she “hurt her fanny” lol.

This Friday (I’m having Friday Off)/Weekend is shaping up to be a busy one which is good I need to let me hair done. Did I mention I got my haircut again? Tried to grow it long but just couldn’t it was at that awkward stage and I just couldn’t stick with it so the short do is around to stay a little more longer.

About time i come back....

I’m such a bad blogger. I always start to write an entry and then get distracted, or forget.
I’m counting down to my holidays in May and can’t wait to catch up with melbie haven’t seen her in more nearly a year now, and I miss her terribly. At the moment I am having some issues with some friends, I just don’t understand them. I’m not sure if it’s me, them or both. But I’m sick of being the one that always tries no more though I have had enough.

On the work front it is so stressful I have to apply for the position I have been working in for the last year, if I don’t get it’s not too bad I get to go back to my old job but it’s a $20k pay cut, hubby is freaking out about that . We will cope just have to tighten up if that happens, my interview is on the day I leave for Melbourne and that week is one of our busiest weeks of the year. Not good timing but maybe I will have even more reason to celebrate in Melbourne or drown my sorrows ha ha.

Health wise not too bad had a diabetes scare, turned out too be ok for now still at risk, but I just can’t seem to shift the weight to me less at risk. It’s a vicious circle and so frustrating. I have started taking something to try and bring my insulin levels down due to the PCOS to see if that will help kick my body back to normal and shift some weight (it isn’t a weight loss drug though). Apparently it can be a slow process, so will be interesting to see how that turns out. The worst thing about it is I know and can feel my body isn’t right and I’m trying so hard to change but everything I do doesn’t help. My doctor is good and understands the frustration but it literally is like hitting your head against a brick wall. I’m still not ovulating either so this is meant to maybe help bring it all back to normal.

Joel and I have decided we are going to Bali in October, I am excited but would prefer to go somewhere else, it’s just too cheap to say no too at the moment and we are both in need of a holiday together.

I really want my $900 but Mr Rudd has decided to make me wait, I have already spent it ha ha so now I want it to confirm my purchases.

In exciting news once in Melbourne I will be hitting Chanel and I will be making more than one purchase YAY!

a little flat

I’m such a bad blogger. I am always meaning to write but something else gets in the way.

Last week’s weigh in went quite well I lost 700g, so a little bigger than I have been loosing and I was so happy with it. The slowness that it is coming off is starting to piss me off.
I know I’m loosing so that’s the main thing but c’mon I want a kilo loss he he.

There really isn’t too much to report our jobs we are still unsure about and weekends are good and cruisy but nothing out of the ordinary.

I’m counting down my holidays in May, hurry up I need some shopping time. I haven’t been shopping in sooooo long.

uneasy

WOW where do I start. It’s been a while since I last updated.

There has been so much going on I think I have put off updating cos I really don’t know where to start.
So point form may be easier:

· Last week I lost 300g and this week I stayed the same.
· Found out that I had PCOS and that obviously with this it will be harder for me to have children.
· Hubby’s Job is up in the air
· My Job is up in the air
· Was contacted by an ex who I haven’t heard from in 2 years.

All in all it has been a pretty confronting time for me, the future atm for us is so up in the air, we just have to ride the wave and see where it takes us.
I’m not going to lie it makes me very nervous.

Weighed In this morning and another 500g gone, I’m so happy with this. Even though they are smallish losses it’s the healthy way of doing things. By the the time melbourne comes i hope i am my wedding weight which will be awesome.

So last night i got home and took some pics of our backyard.....

Our pretty gate that my dad made for us(mind our bins):



Down the side of the house (this is one area i want to do something but not sure what):



This is what Hubby did on the weekend:


The Rest of the yard(can't believe this was all sand a year ago):







This is the main area i don't know what to do with in the corner an ideas?( i want a dog, so i think it's the perfect place for a kennel he he but hubby says no to the pug :( )



Sorry for all the pictures x

Better late than never

Oooppss! I forgot to blog last week.

Last week saw a 400g loss, not too shabby at least it isn’t a gain.


On Saturday we headed out to Hubby’s Grandparents house to say hello. After that we headed into Freo for lunch.
I have been to flipside before, they do the best burgers ever, and hubby has never been so I thought he would like to go
And boy was I right he loved it. I had parmesan, chicken and pear burger it was delish, I could only manage to eat half though.

Then I got a call from my mum saying to come over because my nephews were there, it was so great to see them, as I don’t get to see them a lot.
Every time I see them they are bigger and cuter.
Sunday was cleaning the house day; it feels great when everything is done. We actually hubby planted some plants up the back so it adds a bit more colour instead of
Just grass. I really must take a picture; I love our backyard atm. There are a few spots that I just don’t know what to do with but I really want something there other than grass
But I’m not sure what. I really should take some pictures. I will try this week.

On a lighter note!

Do you know what I have been doing all morning?

Well since you really want to know I have been pulling up my shorts, they keep falling down.
This is a good thing obviously, but a bit embarrassing when I nearly showed a teacher my backside lol.

Weigh In was this morning 1.1kg gone and never coming back YAY! I’m very happy with this.

Last night I was having a convo with hubby and he is always telling me he loves me the way I am, which is great. But when I’m trying to loose weight I find it off putting, I know that seems silly but hear me out.
I have told him how much I weigh he is the only person I have told and he doesn’t believe me he says I am lying to him. He just won’t believe me no matter how much I tell him it’s true. Which is sweet too, but I know I have got to loose weight, but he thinks I’m fine. I hope you don’t think I’m a whingeing cow it is just frustrating me. Can’t he see what I see?

Anyway at the end of the day this for me, I guess I should be grateful.

Work is still uncertain of what is happening, to be honest I’m just hanging out until May Long Service baby.

Good Times

So I weighed in on Thursday and I had lost 700grams. I am so pleased with that cos its TTOTM so it could have been more but a loss is a loss.

I woke up this morning and I just felt so positive about everything, YAY!

Last weekend I finally had time to sort out my wardrobe it has been over flowing for a while so I de cluttered and got rid of about a wheelie bin full some went to the salvos and some went to eBay!
Here are some pictures:

Birthday

I weighed in last week just forgot to post about it. I stayed the same which I was quite pleased with because it was my birthday and it ended up being quite a big weekend.
I was very spoiled for my birthday I received return ticket to Melbourne, a tiffany ring, an eiffel tower tiffany charm for my bracelet, a dress and a skirt, a vogue magazine subscription, mimco voucher.
We just went out for dinner and drinks at a pub up the road.

I am really looking forward to going to Melbourne in May. It will be nearly half way through the year and I normally need a break around then.

I weigh in tomorrow, although I have been pretty good eating and exercising wise, it was out first wedding anniversary and we did go out and indulge in a 15 course TAPA menu lol.
Most of it was seafood and salads, but the crème Brule was delish.

I can’t believe it’s been a year since we got married, it has just gone so fast.

A new start!

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So I’m back again after I promised I will blog more often. Maybe I just won’t promise and see what will happen, even though I’m not too sure is anybody is actually reading J

Again I promised that I would keep my weight in check, hah that didn’t happen either! It actually went the other way and I put more on.

2009 is my year I have decided, no promise I just know this is my year.

I have had a good hard look at a few things, and I really am not happy with me and what I have let myself become. For ages I just kept thinking “oh yeah I’m fine the way I am” or “the scales say that much but I really don’t look that weight do I” well yes I do look that way and I have finally accepted it and decided to do something about it since our wedding in Jan 08 I have put on 12kgs. Some of that was from when I was overseas, some of it was because I have stuffed my knee and can’t exercise without it hurting but in the end it just kept getting higher and higher and I did nothing about it. My knee is starting to recover and I have started this week going on slow steady walks, although it is annoying going so slow at least I am doing something right, I wish I could be running that is my goal by June this year I will be running. So please knee be nice to me.

I have to admit that this is not the only reason I am starting this journey, yes I want to look and feel better inside and out but it also has a bit to with adding a little one to our family. We have been trying since September last year. And I know deep down that it is better for me to be healthy and it will hopefully help our chances of adding to our family.

My before picture – This was taken Last week.