Vera Wang and Dior

Fuckity Fuck Fuck! That is what is going through my head right now.

I just rang Joel and asked him can we elope, pretty please? There is so much stuff going on at the moment with my family and his family I'm ready to jump on that plane. I have actually been really sick the last couple of weeks and I'm really starting to put it down to stress, i always knew it was some of the cause but maybe i am this sick because of all the stress. You think people (families) would be compassionate at this time so close to the wedding but no all i am getting is "she is not really sick, she doesn't like our family" (comments made from my lovely in laws to be) "she is always sick, blah blah" and then on the other side of the stick(my family) " oh it is your fault you are making the dramas worse etc" Why can't this be the most wonderful time it is meant to be. Lucky i do have Joel cos he is the only one that is holding me together at the moment.

I have to say I'm actually really dreading Christmas at the moment every time i eat i get a really sick feeling in my stomach and usually have to lay down, doesn't matter what i eat it happens after every meal and the last couple of days i have skipped breakfast to avoid the feeling cos it really is horrible and i normally have to have a nap for a couple of hours to feel a bit better. I hate this feeling. Also with all the family dramas i do not feel like smiling and just forgetting what everyone has been saying about/towards Joel and i. I hate that fakeness shit!

I do hope everyone has a lovely christmas, and hopefully here's to the happy time thats 2008 will bring us.

Oh i nearly forgot to mention, last night a very very close friend of mine came over to catch up not only did she bring the vera wang glasses/cake cutter that i brought through her mum(she works for wedgewood) she had given me my christmas present it was so gorgeous she gave me a Dior bracelet and it is so stunning.

So here's to Vera Wang and Dior :)

Buttons are silly things

Had the dress fitting last night, It just seems so unfinished atm all the beading is yet to be done, and other bits and pieces still unfinished. But it is looking great it had the buttons on this time they are so tiny, good luck to my mum :lol: they had problems doing up the 2 top buttons but once it was up it felt ok a little tight but she said that they need to stretch or something.
I tried on a veil it look quite good it was very very simple and it was as long as the dress 2.3m. I'm getting it but still unsure if i'll wear it on the day i guess i leave it up to last minute and then it can be a surprise :)

Heading out tonight with Kenz and Arna, should be a good night. Although i have busy day tomorrow so i'm not sure how long i'll be out for :)

6 weeks to go

I can’t believe there is about 6weeks left to the wedding. I have to admit I am little bit over it at the moment I being told this is normal. I feel excited about becoming Joel and I becoming husband and Wife I just feel like there is so much going on I don’t have time to just relax, lucky Christmas is coming up and I’ll have a couple of days off but then it’s back to work. I’m getting so excited about the honeymoon.

We ordered our cake flavours the other day we are having cherry/chocolate flavour. We aren’t actually handing our cake out at the wedding or serving it up as dessert. We will cut it just for pictures and then because all my family will be over from the east we are having a brunch the next day and we will hand out the cake then just to close friends and family. I know I am going to get some strange looks from people about this on the day but I just wanted something special for my family for coming over and I though this was a nice idea. I will make sure Joel’s parents/grandparents get some though.

Have had some more dramas with my MOH to cut a very long story short she can not make the rehearsal/dance lesson or my hen’s night – which now has been cancelled. Her reason’s are justified to an extent but she is just acting like she didn’t know anything about the wedding until a month ago and making comments about how she hope I only get married once and a few other snide remarks.

I’m heading to the reception place today to finalise some details and then tomorrow I have my final dress fitting.