Tease

Because i am becoming a little housewifey i have been baking heaps.
Here is a pic of a yummy cake i made a while ago.

Realising the obvious

This week has been a horror of a week and I am glad it is finally Friday. A lot of thing happened this week out of my control but I felt myself spiralling out of control
in every shape and form. After a relaxing and calming night I have decide to take a new direction in life.
I realise I can’t control everything even though I would love too cos I am a control freak. But from now just
To sit back and relax and just take what comes, and try to sort it out if it’s out of my control there’s no point
Using all my energy trying to change it when I can’t. I know this is pretty obvious for most, but I have only just come to the realisation I can’t control everything, much to Joel’s delight lol. So this is a more positive me I guess, hence the change of title for my blog.

Next Wednesday I am starting a 10 week course in MYOB and Payroll and at the end of it I will receive a Certificate 3, so I’m pretty stoked about that. It just makes me look more hireable when I’m looking for a new job.

This weekend is pretty jammed packed, tonight dinner and cocktails with my bestie and her sister. Tomorrow we have an engagement party, it’s so far away though and I’m not really that excited about it and plus I have to drive, boo no drinking and Sunday will be cleaning the house and I am making a yummy roast chicken for dinner.

So after realising the obvious, here’s to better times.

x

All at once

At the moment Joel and I are struggling a bit just trying to get used to the life of having a mortgage, and all the bills that come in at once. I mean really what did I except? For it too be all rosey and easy as pie!

Let me just clarify Joel and I are happy together, we just have to adjust and it’s taking its toll a little bit. We have never lived out of home before, until now. It just feels like we get on top of everything and then a mountain of other shit comes up. It’s not only bills my car has been playing up recently, we only my car atm as Joel’s car has been sitting in his parent’s drive way for about a year still waiting to be fixed or Joel deciding if it’s worth getting fixed. Arggghhh it just all has to happen at once doesn’t it?

SO anyway on the weight loss front I have lost 1.2kg’s so far, it’s a slow process but I prefer to do it a little bit slower I feel more in control if that makes sense, and If I do have a bad day I don’t have to beat my self up and still in the end I get the same result.
What a whiney/sad post, sorry guys just not feeling the greatest atm

a long time coming.....

Hello Strangers…

It has been a long time. Someone out there asked me to blog so I thought I would.

We finally moved into our new house 2 weeks ago so we have been busy trying to set everything up, it’s so funny I thought
I had everything but as we started unpacking and setting up everything I realised there was so much that I had forgotten about, like we didn’t organise an aerial ha ha so now we are sitting watching a crackling TV screen, oh the joys of being a first homeowner lol.

I was just going through photo bucket and found this photo of me from maybe about 3 years ago oh my go I wish I was looking like that now. Maybe I have just accidentally found my new inspirational photo? I’m really starting to get annoyed about my weight and I’m upset I have let myself get this far but I did it to myself so I should be able to get my head around it but I just can’t and I can’t get motivated. But after seeing that pic I have found some form of encouragement I think.
Here is the picture:



I really just have to start getting back on track.

So here are some pictures of new housey: they are so big sorry if you double click you can see the whole pic.

if the shoe fits wear it

The joys of having a mortgage I know I shouldn’t complain about it, we should be thankful we were able to get a house. But with these interest rises it really is straining us; the main reason is because we are still at construction so the interest rate was high to begin with. Hopefully it shouldn’t be too long now until we are in our house.

I have started packing up all the stuff at my parent’s house, just from my mum’s wardrobe alone it was 6 boxes packed full. I really had to clear some stuff out mainly jewellery, shoes and odd bits and pieces I just couldn’t be stuffed putting on eBay so I went to the markets on Sunday and sold most of the stuff which is good, and walked away with $208 so not bad it all went to savings boo hoo. I would of loved for it to go to my Alannah Hill fund. I miss shopping so much I tried to shop my self out overseas and it did last a couple of weeks of really not in the mood to shop. But now I have been back for 3 weeks and I feel the need to spend. So there had been these shoes I thought we quite cute in Target before I even went away, walked passed today they were $1.86 for a pair of sexy gold heels only pair left my size. So I snapped them up ha ha I get rid of shoes and then add more to the collection hey why not I’m going to have to look pretty in my house because we will be spending most of our time there I predict. Not sure where all my shoes and clothes are going to go in the new house, I would love a room just for all my stuff but it’s only 3bedrooms. One is ours and one is a spare and the other well we are saving that room for something special. All Joel’s musical equipment is going in the garage at them moment we only have one car so it works out well he gets half the garage it was meant to go in the 3rd bedroom but he suggested he would like the garage I had no objections.

I’m really over my job at the moment I have been here 6 years this April and next year I get long service I’m hanging out for that and then I am leaving I deserve so much more than this job. Also we are hoping to start a family soon, and I’m hoping it will all tie in nicely with long service etc. One thing is stopping me and that is Joel wants to work overseas/interstate(Melbourne) So if I do get pregnant I will either stay here on my own with my family as support or go with him and only have a few people I know there. We really haven’t decided what to do yet Joel is waiting for the financial year to be up and then he will make his decision.

start of a new era

At some stage Joel and I want to start a family, but I just can’t even think about that until I loose some weight. Even though I hated the food in the US, I still had to eat and most things of course weren’t that great options, I put on about 5kg’s even with all the walking we did. So now I’m starting to think ok what can I do to get myself at where I want to be physically and mentally. Not just a weight thing I want to be fit too. We are pretty strapped for cash atm so joining gyms etc are out of the question so by the end of the week I hope to have a plan of attack to get fit and live a healthy lifestyle. I know I can do it I just have to put my mind too and not loose focus.

My mini goal is to loose 5kg by April. So weekly weigh ins it is at home starting Monday.

More photos

Here is a link to some of my professional photos. So very happy with them :)

http://www.flickr.com/photos/76668173@N00/sets/72157604048887241/