Vera Wang and Dior

Fuckity Fuck Fuck! That is what is going through my head right now.

I just rang Joel and asked him can we elope, pretty please? There is so much stuff going on at the moment with my family and his family I'm ready to jump on that plane. I have actually been really sick the last couple of weeks and I'm really starting to put it down to stress, i always knew it was some of the cause but maybe i am this sick because of all the stress. You think people (families) would be compassionate at this time so close to the wedding but no all i am getting is "she is not really sick, she doesn't like our family" (comments made from my lovely in laws to be) "she is always sick, blah blah" and then on the other side of the stick(my family) " oh it is your fault you are making the dramas worse etc" Why can't this be the most wonderful time it is meant to be. Lucky i do have Joel cos he is the only one that is holding me together at the moment.

I have to say I'm actually really dreading Christmas at the moment every time i eat i get a really sick feeling in my stomach and usually have to lay down, doesn't matter what i eat it happens after every meal and the last couple of days i have skipped breakfast to avoid the feeling cos it really is horrible and i normally have to have a nap for a couple of hours to feel a bit better. I hate this feeling. Also with all the family dramas i do not feel like smiling and just forgetting what everyone has been saying about/towards Joel and i. I hate that fakeness shit!

I do hope everyone has a lovely christmas, and hopefully here's to the happy time thats 2008 will bring us.

Oh i nearly forgot to mention, last night a very very close friend of mine came over to catch up not only did she bring the vera wang glasses/cake cutter that i brought through her mum(she works for wedgewood) she had given me my christmas present it was so gorgeous she gave me a Dior bracelet and it is so stunning.

So here's to Vera Wang and Dior :)